Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Walking in between the Worlds - living a charmed life

Do you trust your inner compass? Two weeks ago, I was preparing to travel to NYC for the first time in my life. Not only was I going to a city I´ve never been before but I was going by myself to attend an advanced mediumship class. The combination of all these factors made this trip a magical time.  I wondered whether the spirits will show up. What if I can´t connect at that time.... What if it does not work.... I also wondered about the city and how safe it was for me to be walking around by myself. Then I realized I come from a big city, Buenos Aires is not a tea party and you are trained to be aware of your surroundings. I thought I could do New York. Since I moved to the US 14 years ago, I always compared Buenos Aires to New York as San Francisco is a gentler city. I still remember when I came to San Francisco for the first time and people would say hi to me and I would look at them like... why are you talking to me? What do you want? and I would grab my purse closer to me. Life is a funny game of reversals. Now I found myself in NYC and I would be the smiling Californian one and people would look at me as I had looked at those San Francisco people the first time I came to this country. 

I landed in New Jersey, picked up my car and decided to go to the Liberty Statue Park. Little did I know it was so cold and there wouldn´t be a soul in this park by the time I arrived there. My only companion was a geese and we looked at each other as why are you here dude? Don´t you see the storm is coming? My intention was to see the Statue of Liberty as I landed. This day was my mom´s anniversary, she´s been gone from her physical form for 11 years now. I walked the desolated park feeling the spirits around and knowing the people that had walked the path before. Those who were looking for freedom. I know when I landed in this country I was looking for freedom, for opportunity, for a land of dreams. 

As I headed back to Pompton Lakes, I left the big city behind and head to the lakes, forest and countryside. I felt more comfortable with this vibration than then hectic city style. The monkey in my head would say.. you are too old for that! I checked in the hotel and decided to find a sushi place close to the hotel. If  you know me, you know there are two things I look for when I travel, one is sushi and the other one is food from Argentina. I arrived to the Sushi restaurant and I placed my order. Would you imagine that they did not sell any alcohol in this restaurant? When I said I´d like a glass of wine, the lady told me that I should get my wine from the liquor store next door. It took me a while to understand I had to go purchase the wine next door then come back. I did so and I laughed at myself thinking... note for self... bring our liquor in your bag if you want wine with  your meal in Pompton Lakes. 

The next day was my adventure day, I decided to drive to the city and explore. I had picked a park and drive station and I was set to go but before I left, I asked my guides and angels to make sure I was protected and I also let them know I was open for any suggestions they may have. I set up my phone with the directions and started driving. My GPS said I had 25 more minutes to go when I saw a park and ride sign. I took a deep breath and asked, should I park there? Then I got a yes so I took action. I got to the parking lot and found a space. Map in hand and trying to figure everything out, I faced the machine, put my credit card and got my ticket... well I got my parking ticket if it wasn´t for the angel behind me that told me the bus ticket came after the parking ticket. I got my tickets and took a picture of the station as well as got a schedule for the bus that would bring me back to my rental car. For one split second I allowed fear to take over and wondered what if I could not find my way back. It only lasted one second, then I found myself on the bus on my way to the big apple!

I arrived at the central bus station and as I got off the bus, I could feel the vibration of the people. Hectic, nervous, busy... all of the above. That was the moment I realized I am not a city girl anymore. I can deal with the city energy but I can not live there. As I pulled my map and my book I tried figure out where I was. I started walking and a girl hit my back and gave me $2 that she said I dropped. I said thank you and put them in my bag as I knew they were not mine but I was not going to argue with her. I had several destinations marked in my map that I wanted to see so I set off into my walking adventure. I started with the public library, then the Chrysler building, then the United Nations, then Saint Patrick´s cathedral where I left the $2 I got before and lit a candle to Saint Theresa. The magic continue all day long as I would just find the places on my map by chance. I almost got a lift to take me to Wall Street but decided to cancel it and take the subway, another adventure! I kept telling myself... I have phenomenal coping skills... my students would understand this saying for sure. Fear came and left and was back into feeling excited about this adventure. This trip was meant to be a guided trip, not because I had a tourist guide but I had the Angels on my side. I got to the subway and magically got to 9/11 memorial. The vibration of that place was too much as my tears started coming down. I had to get out of there.... kept walking trying to find Wall Street but ended up going up a different direction to reach the Brooklin bridge. I walked the bridge and felt great! I love bridges! My adventure was about 15 miles long and somehow I got back to my car even when feared I would not find it. I even made it to the event in the Church that night... I kept telling the universe... If I am meant to be there, make it happen... I follow. I made it!

The class was not piece of cake. I still remember the first reading practice when we did not even have a meditation or anything, just connect! Thank Goddess I was able to connect. This class really pushed me out of my comfort zone.  One of my friends asked me what I learned on the first day and I responded, I talked to dead people! I am not the usual friend for sure! 

After the first class, I decided to go try the Argentinean place. Little did I know this place was also a place where you had to bring your own wine! New Jersey was trying to keep me clean and sober for sure! The restaurant was nice but there were 5 waiters, all Latin men, and I seemed to be the center of attention. If you know me, you know I don´t like to be the center of attention but in here, I decided to play along and tap into their range of vibration. It was a fun experience as I could feel their anxiety and I made it a game. I may look like in my 20s but I am almost 40 so it was an interesting experience to say. Believe me when I say it was easy after trying to connect with Spirit cold turkey!

Day 2 of the class was as interesting as day 1! Definitely pushed me out of my comfort zone but also showed me the areas I need to work on so I was deeply grateful for all my guidance that brought me here. It was an amazing adventure and I allowed myself to be flexible and go with the flow. So much that when I tried to put gas on the rental car the gas station guy came running.... I guess you don´t pour your own gas in New Jersey. Besides, I think he noticed I could not figure out how to open the gas thing.... Not only did I look like I wanted to rob the gas station but it also looked like I had stolen the car I was driving as I did not know how to open the gas door. When I look back, all I can do is smile like the time I ate the gallop of butter off the pancake thinking it was whip cream because who on earth puts butter on a pancake... pre US days!

My trip taught me one thing for sure, I walk between the world and I trust Spirit because it never leaves me. Whether it is to show me the way on a subway or  push me away from trouble. They are always there, they have my back and they are ready for me to do my work as well.

Blessings,

Carolina Amor


Friday, March 31, 2017

Back in Planet Earth

Hello Earthlings! I´ve been wondering in outer space and I have decided to come back to Planet Earth because there is more to learn in this land. This land that has become wonderland as you don´t know what type of creature will come out next. A place where reality seems unreal and we seem to be living in a reality show that has a bitter taste and leave us wondering who will be voted out of the house next. Avoidance is one solution. Fighting is another. We have done both in the past. We have walked that road before, do we want to walk it again? Can we choose a different road? What does that road look like? We face a time of exploration, a time where we face our inner demons and we are triggered from every corner to react but reaction is not what is needed here. We need strategy, we need unity, we need collaboration. There are times where we don´t need to fight fire with fire and this is one of those times if we don´t want to have a global explosion. This is the time where we are asked to be like chess players and anticipate the moves. We are ask to see two or three steps ahead of our opponent because our opponent does not have long term vision. We are also reminded that we are all one so if we work on lifting our vibrations and working on our ourselves, our change will generate a global change because it creates a ripple effect.

I have mentioned this saying several times but I feel it deserves repeating once again. We have zero control over the events in our lives, but we have the control over how we choose to react to them. If  you change your reactions or your responses, you will change the outcome. There are several things we cannot change but we can choose to work around them or try to find a way to deal with them. This way of thinking is an invitation to not take the victimhood road and instead take responsibility for our creations and know that we always have a choice and that choice gives us power. The power to shape our reality because our responses shape our reality.

As we continue facing chaos, uncertainty and fear, it is up to us to go with the masses or to choose different. Choose today to not let the chaos and uncertainty rule  your life. Don´t let these situations take your power away and also don´t engage in low vibration behavior as anger and hate. Instead, choose to shift your vibration, focus on gratitude and all the positive things you have. Remember you always have a choice and if you want a different result, you will need to choose a different path because if you always choose what you always chose, you will always get what you always got. It´s as simple as that. We are called to find a different path, a new path. This is a path of self exploration and change, it´s a path that we have not walked before. Be gentle with yourself during this process and remember to take care of your own needs, because if you don´t do it, nobody will.

Change is the only constant and this is just the beginning.

Blessings,

Rev. Carolina Amor


Monday, December 12, 2016

Vulnerable - needs a new code

Vulnerable seemed to be a bad word when I was a child. I had to be tough, I had to be strong, I had to be wonder woman being able to do everything on my own. When my mother was sick, I could not be weak, I could not show my feelings, I just had to stand up in front of the doctors and be firm. I still remember the day when I was 16, and I told my mother´s psychiatrist that he needed to place her under care because I was not a nurse and my mother was a liability for herself and I. If something were to happen to either of us, it would be his fault and I would make sure he paid for it. I don´t think he saw that coming from me but I am sure he felt I was seriously honest and he could mark my words. 

I was very young when I learned that I needed to be either alpha or invisible. I could go from one to the other on command. My preference was being invisible as I did not like to confront or push people. Being vulnerable was like being weak and something I would never want anybody to associate with me. If I wasn´t invisible, I wanted to be strong, solid, tough, and impersonal. 

Moving to the United States only increased the feeling that being vulnerable was no right. As I moved to this country, I shielded. I had no family, no close friends, only my ex-husband. He was my rock, he was everything to me here and that was not fair on him. As the years passed, I expanded my circle and I rediscover who I was. Still, the code that said  being vulnerable is not right never went away. Somehow, there is a program running in the back of my mind that says being vulnerable is not right. When you are vulnerable you are not in control and if you are not in control bad things happen. If you are vulnerable, you are human and you are not wonder woman. If you are vulnerable, you may need to ask for help and that´s uncomfortable. All these programs have been running in the back of my mind and it is time for them to get hacked and reprogramed. 

The new program talks about trust, forgiveness and strength coming from confidence and self love and not control.  Trust that the Universe has your back and no matter what is happening in your life, it´s all part of the bigger picture. Trust that you are always protected and things will be alright. 

A heart filled with resentment and regret is not a happy heart so reprogram yourself to let go of the past and say as they say in the ho´oponopono tradition "I am sorry, please forgive me, Thank you, I love you". In order to forgive, you need to be able to let go. Similar to holding your keys in your hand and dropping them, you need to be able to let go of those cords that tie you to the past. Say sorry, thank the situation, love the situation and let it go.

Confidence and Self-Love come from within. One technique that works for increasing self love is mirror work. I learned this technique from Louise Hay and her Mirror Work class, actually Mirror Play class. Nothing is going to change until you are able to love yourself first. Everyday, try to look at yourself in the mirror and say "I love you, I really, really love you". They say "fake it till you make it" and there is some truth to that. Nobody said it would be easy but mirror play is worth in gold. 

If you combine Trust, Forgiveness and Self-Love, you will realize that being vulnerable is not a bad thing but it is a normal stage of being human and it does not need to feel wrong. It is all in the program and having other programs running in the background helps you feel that it is fine to be vulnerable because being vulnerable makes  you human, it makes you who you are and it makes you real.

Vulnerable- needs a new code.

Many blessings,

Rev. Carolina A. Amor






Monday, December 5, 2016

Can you love your enemy?

Today, I sit in contemplation around the question "can you love your enemy?". It is definitely much easier to love those who we like than those who are not on our good side.  Can we love those people who push our buttons? Can we love those who have hurt us in the past? Can we love those who oppose our way of living?

Love and hate are the two extremes of the same energy. That´s why it is easy for friends to fall apart and become enemies as they reverse the polarity of their energetic interaction. If they both want, they can reverse the polarity back and get back to good terms.

As I contemplate this question, I also realize that our enemies, or those who are not on our good side, offer us an opportunity to explore those areas of ourselves that we may not want to assume in ourselves and we project in others. Can you see any characteristics in the people you don´t like that you don´t want to see in yourself? Are these people pushing your buttons because those buttons have the seed of opportunity for you to work on those issues? I feel that people who push us are there because we have an energetic cord that we have not worked on or that is still hurting and they offer us an opportunity to heal. They are there to help us whether we are ready or not. If we are not ready, we may push them away or project bad energy to them. If we are ready to heal those cords, then we will release the need to have an enemy but see ourselves in that person, forgive and let them go.

The moment you see your enemies as your opportunities in disguise, as your teachers, you will realize that they are there for a reason and they are helping you. This will shift your energy and help you let go of the hurt feelings and be in peace with yourself and with others. When you reach that level, you know you can say "yes" to the question can you love your enemy?

Love and Light,






Sunday, November 27, 2016

Ready for Winter Solstice, Ready for a New Beginning

It began with the Winter Solstice of 2012 -  12/21/12. That was the last time I experienced a Winter Solstice and it was a memorable one. It was the beginning of the end. The end of my marriage, the end of the life as I knew it in the United States, and the beginning of reclaiming who I was and who I am. I had adapted to this country losing parts of myself in the process, parts that I reclaimed as I reclaimed my sovereignty. As I reclaimed my maiden name, I reclaimed myself, my roots, my authentic self. I was done with settling for less than what I deserved or looked at the other side. It was time to look at life in the eye and be reborn. This time, be reborn in my true self, the independent woman I always was, the one that did not want to be a mother to her partner but a real partner. 

Little did I know that the moment I made that decision, I was also going to get into a loop that would take me to have 7 summer solstices in a row. Like having a forever Full Moon, I was riding the wave of summer and completion for three years in a row, experiencing the peaks and the ends but not experiencing new beginnings. 2013 marked the first time that I returned home for Christmas after moving to the United States. For some reason, I had sacrificed my family to spend the holidays with my ex-husband´s family. I will always remember that trip. I found out my divorce was final when I was there and my best friend and I had a divorce party or better said, a welcome to single life party! Since then, I have been going back home every Christmas and that has become a tradition until this year. 

Some traditions are meant to be kept and others are meant to be broken. I think this tradition was based on fear of being alone for the holidays. I feared not finding myself in the United States now that I am divorced. I left everything behind following love and now that love did not exist anymore. Even though, I decided not to move back home and stay here, my new home. The holidays are portals where emotions are up in the air and we tend to feel vulnerable so my way to cope with the feelings was to go back home. 

My divorce was just the beginning of loss in my life. I had to go through grieving my grandmother, my spiritual mother and my auntie as well as several friendships that turned sour once I found myself again and I was not going to tolerate some behaviors. In the past, I may have played the role of mother and caregiver, I may have given more than my fair share in relationships but now, it´s a different story and that has left me with the people that really matter around me. They may be few but better to have a few great ones than many mediocre ones. 

This year I have also found my puppy companion - Pepa Amor. It was January 20, one week after my mom´s birthday, when I saw an ad in Craig´s list offering a Chihuahua pug for free. I asked the universe for that kind of dog and there she was. I texted Jose when I saw the ad and asked if she was still available. She was! I went to see her that same day and our first meeting was interesting as she would not take any of the treats I brought for her. I looked into her eyes and I asked the Universe, is this my puppy? I heard yes. That´s all I needed. There was no leash, no bed, not anything for her. She looked as scared as I did when we got into my car. New adventure???? We went to the pet store and got her a few essentials and that´s how our story began. Now she is my baby and my companion. She is my angel. As I write this blog, she is on my lap and never leaves my side when I am home. Every time I come home, she welcomes me with unconditional love and happiness to see me. She means the world to me so how could I leave her alone during the holidays? I am not!

2016 marks the beginning of a new tradition. The tradition of staying home for the holidays. Pepa and I will celebrate Winter Solstice together and we will set the intentions for the new beginnings for the year to come. We will witness the return of the light and we will enjoy seeing the light grow. I´ve been running from the shadows for too long and I am now ready for a new beginning, a new light and 2016 is the year for that. The year to set new beginnings because I am ready! I am ready for love! I am ready for success! I am ready to shine my light and embrace the lighthouse I am!

Love and Light,

Rev. Carolina A. Amor
www.caroamor.com





Saturday, November 19, 2016

Invest in Yourself!

Certain weeks have certain topics, this week, the topic was how you invest in yourself. We are wired to think about others before we think about ourselves. We give to others before we give to ourselves. Not many people are able to follow the mandate from the airplane security message "put your oxygen mask first, then help the other". Most people would die without oxygen because they would be caring and catering to the needs of others at the expense of their own needs. Where does this concept come from? Why is it so easy to give and so hard to receive? 

I was meditating on this topic this week and it wasn´t until I talked to my teacher and mentor, Sonia, when I realized that I was enabling people who were not interested in investing in themselves by not charging a fee or offering very reduced prices. Did I think my services were not worth the money? Why did I have such a hard time charging for a service I provide? I have no issues paying fees for classes or for readings or for anything that will move me forward in my evolutionary journey. Why is it so easy for me to pay for myself but I can hardly ask for people to pay for my services? Sonia´s response was that in past lives, I was providing the same services but I did not need to make a living because my needs were covered by the convent I was part of. I was helping poor people, homeless people and those who did not have the means to pay for my services. Today, people are able to pay for things, they are not homeless or poor, and my needs are not met by the convent as I don´t belong to any convent! 

The Universe has very interesting ways to sending us messages. Today, I was working at the Mystic Dream when a lady came in. She looked like a homeless woman. She parked her trolley outside with her belongings and entered the store. She wanted a 15 minute reading. I explained to her what I did and the prices and she had her reading. She enjoyed the reading and she found it helpful. She paid the fee and left. I was surprised but I know she was an angel. She showed me that even the homeless can pay for my services if they are interested in investing in themselves. It broke my paradigm from the past that said give things for free, they can´t afford it. The time has come to begin with self-respect and demand respect from others. Also respect the people´s right to not want to invest in themselves and in their growth. It is ok to let them be. When they are ready to invest in themselves, you will be there.

How does investing in yourself look like? It does not look the same for everyone. For some, may be to have a bubble bath. For others, to read a favorite book. It can also be to watch a nice movie or cuddle with a love one. Investing in yourself means putting yourself first and investing the time and money to help you grow or investing in your happiness. You can not help anybody else if you don´t help yourself first. You need to charge your batteries first and you do that by dedicating time or money or both to your well being (physical, emotional, spiritual). My reading today showed me that everyone can invest in themselves, it is just a question of choice. Today chose yourself. You are the best investment.

Blessings,

Rev. Carolina Amor

www.caroamor.com

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Lovable unless proven Not Lovable

Not guitly unless proven guilty.... the prosecution has the burden of proving somebody has committed the crime, the defendant is able to not even present a case but know that from the very beginning he is innocent unless proven otherwise. Yes, I spent the past couple of days in a court room performing my responsibilities as a citizen... Jury Duty!

Spending time contemplating the law, I couldn´t help but think about other truths that should be laws. Wouldn´t it be great if we all believe we are lovable unless proven otherwise? Who would bear the burden of proving that? Most than half of the human race has been conditioned to think that they are not enough, they don´t do enough, they don´t deserve good and that in order to be successful they have to endure pain by working really hard. It is hard to believe that when we reach adulthood, we feel lovable unless proven otherwise. We feel like we are loved if we do.... We have lost the inner compass that says we are lovable just because we are... we don´t need to do anything to be lovable. 

Somehow society and the mandates from the tribe have proven to us that we are not lovable unless we.... yes... words like unless... if.... have been part of our conditioning to believe we are not lovable. We have been proven by some sort of code that we have to be a certain way, do certain things, or we will not be loved. This is the biggest lie that you can hear so I invite you to reprogram this rule... reprogram this law that talks about if´s and should´s and start as any person starts a case.... Not Guilty.... You are lovable just because you are... you are a wonderful human being with amazing qualities and at a certain point in your life, you made the agreement with the tribe to think you were not lovable unless you conform to certain rules that had an underlying message that says... you are not lovable.... you have to make an effort to be lovable.... Let´s erase all these mandates and start with a clean slate... a slate that says you are enough... you are lovable... you are perfect just the way you are... Don´t follow the mandate that brings you down and makes you believe you are not enough. Instead, look at the evidence and see nobody has proven you are not lovable beyond the reasonable doubt so don´t buy it... don´t accept it... Know your truth... Know your unique self and the Divinity that lives within you.

You are lovable, you are enough, you are perfect just the way you are! If you are going to believe what others say, make sure is beyond the reasonable doubt. I bet you, you will come lovable every time!

Many blessings,

Carolina A. Amor